A Writer's Strife.

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Keep on keeping on.

Here is my little stream of consciousness that I go through all the time while trying to become a writer:

 

love to write. love to write. don't want to do it right now though. maybe later. or over winter break.

this is an amazing idea! o wait, it.'s taken. o wait, there's a huge chunk missing in order for it to make sense and i can't figure out how to fill it. o wait, when looking back on it, this idea is really stupid and cliche. 

slight headache, a little fatigue, still too light outside.

i can't just start writing, it feels so unmomentous.

all that thought and it's only half a page.

i'll never be as good as them

who would want to read this shiznit?

am i even a writer? where's the distinction? it's like the in-between phase where you're unsure of whether it's a boy or a man or a girl or a woman. when do you become a writer? is it a mindset or authorship?

my mind just went blank

i had that dream that one time that would have been a great story. but i forgot it.

why can't the inspiration just come?

why does the inspiration have to come at the most inopportune times. during my midterm? please.

if this lady sees me staring at her one more time i know she'll flip... but she's just so interesting. i wonder if i could base a character on her...?

the pen is too far away to write this idea down. i'll just remember it. oops, forgot it.

this is such a great idea! this is such a great idea! i have to tell someone... o wait, their reaction wasn't that great... maybe i should rethink this.

there are too many ideas swarming around in my head! i can't pick just one. i'll just do it later... what were those ideas again?

this is amazing this is amazing! i love this! i sound way too conceited... but this story i just wrote is amazing!

Oh wait, it's not that good.

Good luck to all you writers out there!

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Sincerely, Ella

Fashion Inspirations Four.

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Go with it.

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Sincerely, Ella

Into 2013.

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Be willing to modify your goals

Seeing as it's almost a week into 2013, I think it is definitely time to follow up on the post I wrote in September on my 'Four simple Goals (Before 2013)' - click the title to check it out. 

Here is a little refresh of what I set as goals for myself:

1. Begin drawing again. I used to be an avid (self proclaimed) artist, always looking for inspiration in the mundane. That has somehow been lost over these past few years and I would like it back please.

2. Take walks at my own pace. Whenever a walk arises it takes quite a push to get me out of the house. I somehow always forget I like walks. I don't, however like walks in which I'm rushed. I tend to always be rushing out the door to walk to work or if I'm walking with another person I don't like having to keep their pace. I do however enjoy my own stroll; without time constraints (well, apparent ones anyway) and without the pull of another person's longer legs. I would like to set aside some time to walk and enjoy my surroundings, and although it may make me sound like a loner, I would like to do it by myself sometimes.

3. Create. I have a large box full of clothing that I've set aside to alter into various things. I have old ties in there that could potentially be headbands, old men's shirts in there that could be tunic dresses, and scraps of interesting patterned material that could embellish something that calls for embellishment. I have the materials, now all I need to do is create.

4. Keep my motivation. The problem I've had with goals in the past is that whenever I would start to see results, I would fall back into my past routines. I want to keep my motivation with the simple goals I've set for myself this year.

*Dramatic voice* And the results are...

1. Begin drawing again.I haven't done anything as elaborate as I've done in the past, but I did create a series of doodles, featured in my 'Between the Lines' post (check it out). They may not exercise my precision when it comes to drawing but I always get really excited when I think up a new concept. Conceptual doodling is definitely rewarding.

2. Take walks at my own pace. I have successfully been able to expand the time I have to walk to work by managing my time that I have for getting ready for work. Managing that time a little better means I get out the door faster and I can meander instead of power walk. I also found that the lighting outside is great for capturing photographs and I now have more time to do so!

3. Create. I have not exactly created in the way I was expecting when I had set this goal. The thing about goals though, is that you have to be willing to modify your goals. You need to be happy with whatever you HAVE done as opposed to what you were expecting to do (unless you really are just slacking). I have created in terms of my creative writing. I even added the 'Bit of Writing' (link to the first one) section to my blog to showcase my efforts.

 4. Keep my motivation. I really think these simple goals have helped me keep my motivation. Simple goals can be modified and achieved in ways you may not have seen coming. Even now, as I wrap up this set of goals, I'm thinking about what my next set will be. Something has been set in motion and motivation has been found.

I wish you all a happy new year and the inspiration to create your own realistic and simple goals.

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Sincerely, Ella.  

Beauty Inspirations Three.

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Create your own version of beauty.

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Sincerely, Ella

Between the Lines.

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Celebrate the small steps

Well, I've finally done it!

*Happy Face*

As a follow up to my 'Drawing Inspirations' post, I wanted to announce that I've created, although small and not on proper paper, a little series of artwork. It was a fun little project I took upon myself to create while trying to pay attention in my personality psychology class (I love you personality psychology, but sometimes you are a very dry topic). All of these little doodles were done on notebook paper which is why I decided to title the series 'Between the Lines'. Hopefully the ideas of the doodles outlive the cliche name. Here are the little masterpieces (as I like to dramatically call them while doing a little 'ta da!' with my arms):

 

The birth of the series idea.

Going crazy with the thing. See if you can follow the story!

Cutesie.

Fun!

Random.

Eyelashes!

Forest within a claw.

What do you think of the name? Do you like it? Any better ideas?

Hope you enjoyed!

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Sincerely, Ella

Drawing Inspirations.

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Hold on to your edge

For a while now I've been trying to reclaim my drawing edge that I seem to have lost. I've compiled a nice amount of photos that I think lend themselves well to drawings. Here are some of them that I have come across:

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Sincerely, Ella